I think the reality of leaving is setting in a little bit. I have been angry lately, and I think one contributing factor is that life is moving towards this moment so fast, and the reality of perfect goodbyes with everyone is impossible. This is the end of a chapter of our lives....perhaps a volume....and we are beginning to write the next.
This past weekend in Indianapolis was our last, and no longer will be 3 hours away capable of the 1/2 dozen our so annual visits that took place over the last 6 years since we moved away. Indy will always hold a place of significance in our journey and we leave behind lots of memories and friends.
Obviously our friendships do not end....but the distance makes the frequency of visits much more difficult, and we realize things will change. I don't even like to write that down. A part of me wants to hold on to this chapter a little bit longer as if more time would allow for a "better ending".
That of course if an emotional response, but it has been interesting to encounter all of the emotion that is surrounding this next step.
I am encountering much that has not been anticipated within myself as we take this journey.....some thoughts......
I am realizing that with great risk comes great sacrifice! If you want to move forward you have to let go and risk boldly!
I have realized that any grandiose or sentimental vision of the future must be crucified for obedience in the moment we now hold.
I am beginning to realize the necessity of suffering to truly understand joy. I am realizing that fear of failure is a great reason to keep trying.
I am realizing that a Great Idea with no action will always be a GREAT IDEA! I have realized that a great idea with action often results in a better idea that requires action.
I am realizing that I don't nearly appreciate the gift of my family enough, and how essential they are to my Salvation. I am not worthy of them.
I am realizing that the many friends and family we are leaving are a gift and that we are very rich people for being blessed with so many people that Love, Pray, and Care for us immensely.
...And now for the first of many goodbyes we don't really now how to do perfectly....Goodbye Indianapolis.....We Love You!
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And we love you all as well! Our time with you all and our journey together has been a joy more than words can describe, and while this chapter is closing, the anticipation of the next brings a joy in itself.
We will miss being closer to you, but are immensely happy that you are pursuing this. God go with you, and bless the road you travel. We will see you soon!
Thank you Luke. It was good to be with you and Janna last weekend and the great dinner downtown on Friday night. We look forward to taking you guys out when you visit in Colorado sometime in the near future!! Thank you for your prayers brother!
Hey Guys, have a safe move out west. Those of us in or near Indy will miss you!
We know the Lord has some great things in store for your family!
Laurie etc
Thank you Laurie. It was good to spend time with your family recently. We will miss you guys! Come visit us in Colorado!
I love indy...some great thoughts
"I am realizing that with great risk comes great sacrifice! If you want to move forward you have to let go and risk boldly!"
for your journey...Gods Blessings
E Hehman
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